missing

a slogan on a tshirt
reminds me of you

sometimes its a person
i see walking by

then sometimes its
the time that you'll usually call

other times its
someone's randomn love story similar to ours

or
sometimes a restaurant i think you will like
or
sometimes when im looking through books of shelves
or
sometimes a shirt i think youll look good in
or
sometimes when i find something funny and want to not forget so i can share it.


different times
and
different reasons
each missing feeling different from the next
oscillating between the miserable and the acceptance
outcome still remains the same

miss you.

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the heart

sometimes
you feel
for no real reason

sometimes
you like
because you feel

sometimes
you love
because you like

sometimes
you hurt
because you love

sometimes
you are angry
because you are hurt

sometimes
you regret
because you were angry

sometimes
you cry
because you regret

sometimes it doesn't matter
that you regretted
that you cried
that you were angry
that you were hurt
that you loved
that you liked
that you felt
since there was
never
no
real
reason

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living beyond the edge

so for the last week or so i have been in atlanta, keeping my sister and the youngest addition to the d family company. i think its really tough being a parent. especially if you live in the nuclear family setting. some may argue the opposite obviously, having to deal with extended family in your face, your inlaws could take a toll on you. but i still think you have the luxury of' me' time which is so important. whereas when you are on your own, you have just you to depend on and simple things like going to watch any random movie, or late night dessert outings are no more an impulse thing and its more of a planned outing. i guess it makes you grow up. [sad for those of us who continue to live in our teenagedom in adulthood] it forces you to become responsible and selfless too. i think most parents do the best job they can, and its only when you are much older and are past the your "parents will never get you" stage that you realize that.

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mat jao

distance was
always the enemy
and now
so is time
so is fatigue

there may be
nothing to say
nothing to proclaim
but still
you want to say more
anything more

is this fleeting
is this forever
its hard to say
its just feels right now.

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